Roxanne~ Roxanee~ Roxxi~ Rosana~ Rojak~

2010-04-26T20:22:00.003+08:00

4 more days to my birthday~ Woo.. Excited MUCH!!~
Should I add into my birthday list?

1) Princess diaries series

2010-04-19T01:31:00.002+08:00

Birthday wish?

Woah~ its been a long time since I have updated my blog eh? hahaha!
its like 11 days more to my birthday!!

hehe! I am just gonna write my wishlist for this year. So yeah~

1) Umbrella ( the one where u can just press the button to open up and close )

2) slippers

3) star card holder( put cards into the folder )

4) Ear piece ( With Bass )

5) Ipod Touch

6) High cut shoe

7) T-shirt

8) Jeans

9) Bag

10) Sunglasses

11) The Sims 3: adventure loft

12) Korean Dictionary

13) Korean language ( how to speak korean )

14) Adobe Photoshop

15) Samsung Ear piece ( my ear piece kind of spoilt.. so yeah )

then its done! :) Any more presents would be appreciated too!
Even a single " Happy Birthday " would make me happy!

2009-07-10T17:06:00.000+08:00

My heart is bleeding.....

I don't know when has it become like this...
Everytime you talk to me...
I just feel so frustrated.In the past, no matter how much you say..
I would patiently reply you, patiently comfort you..
I don't know how it has changed to become like this now..
I feel like everytime i talk to you..
It seems like there are many sharp knife stabbing through my heart.

I can't even try to communicate with you normally anymore..
Its suffocating me..
making me feel like my heart is broken into thousand pieces..
I can't seem to go back to the past anymore..
how can i change back again?

I don't like this feeling seriously..
It's not only me..
But the people in this are also hurting..
I may not say this, but I know..
why can't it go back again?
To the happy times where everyone is still innocent and happy?
Why must it end up like this?
I don't want it to end because of this reason..
But I am beginning to not breathe anymore..
What is the reason behind?

17.03 pm
10th July 2009
roxxi

2009-07-06T13:38:00.002+08:00

THE FEELING IS REALLY FADING

It seems like I am starting to lose feeling for you already..
The things you do in return..
I am really sick and tired of it already.
Horoscope proving that I am not suitable for you..
I guess it is true eh?
No matter how hard I try..
No matter how much I give into..
I will still get the same answer.

Best friends( or Good Friends only )
How I really wish that it could someday exceed that..
But I am really really tired already.
Helping you out...
But you wouldn't see how much I did for you..
Only the girl in your heart.. takes every part of you..

You are too stupid to know what is really happening..
Knowing only the fake reason behind..
and worst, I cannot tell you the true feelings of mine..
For 4 years... 4 long years...
still nothing happened..

I should really really move on...
Maybe I should not have asked who is the girl you like
This way, I wouldn't be so heart-brokened..
Others say there is someone even better for me..
But I know the feeling will always be different.
Falling in love with someone and letting someone like you...
There is always someone who will give in more.. no matter what.

Maybe I should really consider him..
He really treats me much better than you do..
And most of all.. His attention is not on another person..
...Right?

roxxi
6.07.2009( Monday )
13.52 pm

2009-05-06T18:33:00.002+08:00

So was it because I always forgive easily when you bully me and that is why you are stepping all over my head?
Until you can just simply.. Scold me, ask me to shut up, call me a kpo, suan me?

You can talk about crap then I cannot is it? IS IT WRONG?
is it wrong to just join in the fun to make the surrounding even more livelier?

Why is it whenever I join in I will always get the " extra " look?
So what if you can play basket ball very well?
Does it means that you can simply say about people!?
Everybody have their own good and bad points.
I know I am not that pretty but PLEASE at least show some respect!
I dislike people who are bias towards pretty stuff and who give attitude.
No sense of respect at all.

I seriously, find it difficult to entertain you..
If I do this, I will also get something from you..
IF I don't do this, I will also get something from you..
It's really very sick and tiring

Why must I always be the one saying "hi" to the others?
Only when I greet you.. You will then react by greeting me..
Why can't anybody initiate in saying " hi? "
Even in relationships.. Initiative? SELDOM/NEVER.
I feel like I am such a failure.. In friends, family.. EVERYTHING..
Why does others get better treatment but I don't?
Why is it so unfair?
Why can't I just have a simple and ordinary fun life?
Why do I have to go through so much pain and sorrow!

I swear I am never going to talk to guys who gives serious attitude.
I Swear I am not going to be kind and friendly to those who doesn't know how to appreciate it at all!
So? I help you do things..
I gave you pizza..
I helped you to copy..
I tried to help in anyway I can..
But this is the way you treat me ~
FINE! Let it be!
I don't appreciate this kind of friendship.

6.44 pm
6th May 2009

2009-05-02T00:51:00.003+08:00

Best friends thinking of where is your Name?

OF COURSE I WOULD LEAVE THE BEST FOR THE LAST LOH!!!

I am seriously seriously very very touched by the presents from all of you!

hmm~ shall I start my story now?

Well early in the morning, I was supposed to be happy and hyper about my birthday BUT I was just a little too upset with the amount of gifts?

And ALSO Not having IMPORTANT people to wish me a HAPPY BIRTHDAY..
SO I was kind of emotional during the chinese lessons haha!
I was really wondering " Was today really my birthday? "

LUCKILY it did not affect me in doing my exams haha!
SO I kind of went back to slightly hyper mood when the exam finished..
Then Me, Si Ying,Wenxin, Heather, Joey, Cally and the others started chatting about how did we do during the test..
IN the end~ We were the last one to be out of the hall excluding the Higher Chinese students.
I left earlier than the others as it was my birthday? LOL what a lame reason.
Anyway, I walked all the way back home and my dog welcomed me with hyperness! HAHA SUPER DUPER CUTE!
She kept jumping and shaking her tail to welcome me home.
My mum and I waited for a while before we celebrated with a small cake!

After celebrating, my mum rushed off to go on the ship( people who are closed to me should know where she go haha)
Then After that my father came home..
I think only when he saw the birthday cake that he remembered my birthday
" Happy birthday darling "

Well I still have to apologise to Xin Yi Mummy~ Sorry..
I really put in silent mood + I was charging my phone so of course I will not answer your call la~

Anyway soon after Tan Bing Hong called over..
He asked me to chat with him and I went " Okay.. accompany you chat loh "
Then I kept asking him for my present then he say purposely don't want to give LOL ..
I said he has no sincerity.. Don't want to say HAPPY Birthday properly still don't give me present.
Then he started saying about coming to bite me..
I went " COme AH~ You want you come lor! I where will be scared of you!? You want then five mins meet downstairs!"
I seriously didn't expect him to really say " Okay I will be coming, you wait there for me okay? I will come over and bite you "
Before I went downstairs, I really really thought that he was kidding HAHA!
Then again i find it really really weird and suspicious already..
" Did he, xinyi and the others want to give a suprise for me "
Since I saw xinyi calling me and I thought that since she could not get through she used eugene to call over to me haha!

LOL! And he really really ran all the way here..
I brought my dog down too and he gave me a present.
Then i stupidly questioned him " eh? where is xinyi they all? This present not you all buy for me de ah? "
HAHA~ then I just knew that it was bought by himself.
I was really touched by him and so I accompanied him to walk back to him place.
Xinyi was staying around that area too, so we waited for her to come down.
Cheeky her and him Ah~ all lie to me lor .. in the morning like ignore ignore me.. then now then give me the present.
We had a little chat for a while and then my sister called me to say that my father's leaving for Australia soon.
haha~ Lame leh.. still want to send me home.. Then we walked all the way back again to my house.
So I went back home.
Sadly, when i reached home he went off.
So I decided to give him a call and wished him Bon Voyage ^^
He wished me a happy birthday again and we hung the phone.

Around 10.45 Pm++ I left my house with my sister and my dog!
haha.. Seems like the suprise from XINYING and LIPING would be really really the best night of the day.
They have been planning my birthday since.. The start of the year?
AND SORRY FOR BEING LATE!

Indeed, it was really the best ever birthday celebration i had celebrated with XY n LP! I am seriously seriously touched! The cake, the book XY and LP brought me to my highest moment! If not for both of you, I would seriously end my birthday with a " like a everyday life " thinge..

We did many crazy things together at the top of the carpark haha!
We danced like crazy, cheered like crazy, played like crazy, Camera-whore like crazy, WE DID everything together crazily ^^!
10 years of relationship and through these years, I seriously cannot believed we have never ever quarrelled before! Many people say Best friends normally quarrel But we don't~ And we still last!
HAHA! ALL Thanks to the both of you.. I started tearing after seeing the hand-made book by both of you!

Nah~ My speech : " How can you ever do this kind of thing? If it were me, I would not be able to do it at all! I am soooo Lucky to have both of you as my BEST FRIEND AND MY WALL! Let us cherish each other even more okay!? DON'T ever give up on anything and even if you fail get up and work again! Let's work towards success! I know we are all very sick and tired of studies already aren't we? But remember there will always be me okay!? when both of you are super-UBER tired then think of my STUPID face!! haha! OR go and look at the X.R.P Picture hahahahaha~"
Ps: Both of you must cry after seeing my SPEECH okay!? haha!

So..... Pictures Pictures of Prezzis!! ( Need time to upload again .. so .. will upload tmr~ Too tired to continue Want to SLEEP! )

Roxxi
02.05.2009
02.48 am

16 Years Old Here I am~ ^^!

2009-05-02T00:31:00.014+08:00

16 Years Old Here I am~ ^^!

It's already 2nd of May already 2 days after my BIRTHDAY!
Hehe~ So I would Like to thank all these people before I carry On With my story LOL!

First Of all Early in the morning in school .....
1)Wen Xin
2) Si Ying
3) Cally
4) Zhen Qun
5) Kelly Hong
6) Kat Teo
7) Xiu Mei
8) Kai Har
9) Joey Tan
10) Claudia

In the AVA Room ....
1) Heather
2) Eugene
3) Wen Ting
4) Wei Ting

In the Hall ....
1) Faizah Mummy
2) Faezah
3) Jesslina
4) Thiviya
5) Dhaivanai
6) Hui Ling

Other places in School which i Forgot where ...
1) Celestene
2) Janaadan
3) Erman Leong
4) Ms Teh
5) Khalisah
6) Joey Neo
7) Yu Qing
8) Pei Ling
9) Wei Qi

Secondly~ People who Wished me From FACEBOOK ...
1) Xiu Mei
2) Ms Clarisse Ng
3) Ms Teh
4) Serene Ng
5) Amanda Kew
6) Ms Teo
7) Wei Ning ( Amy )
8) Kelly Hong
9) Patricia
10) Mdm Rehana
11) Francis
12) Joey Neo
13) Weng Hui
14) Chen Ern
15) Sherlyn Quah

thirdly from my Handphone ...
1) Xinyi Mummy ( directly at 12 am )
2) Yi Ting [ hamster ] ( 1 minute after 12 am )
3) Rebecca
4) Hansol Oppa
5) Mummy
6) Valerie Mei
7) Xin Ying
8) Yan Ping
9) Kat Teo
10) Yu Ting
11) Stewart
12) Kelly ( Kat Teo's sister )
13) Uncle Matthew
14) Mr Ivan Lim
15) Zhen Qun
16) Foo Yong Chee
17) Khalisah

Last BUT not least from MSN...
1) Zhi Xiang
2) Marcus
3) Haziq
4) Sean Tan
6) Kevin Chee( Super Duper BELATED )

Wishes In MY BLOG ...
1) Kat Teo
2) Amanda Kew
3) Zhi Xiang

And Wishes from my Dearest KA CHNGS( cousins ) ...
Ah Zuan, Kristi, Raymond Kwa( Although is belated LOL )

AND LASTLY WISHES FROM THEIR BLOGS ...
1) Kat Teo
2) Sherlyn Kwa
3) Yu Ting

PS:
You will find your names appearing many times if you wish me everywhere HAHA!

I'm back? Or am I not?

2009-04-17T21:27:00.004+08:00

I can't believe it has been almost... half a year since I did not update this blog already..

I feel like I have lost my way and could no longer stand up..
It's like a sudden when I see all the questions of my homework and I go ".. How do I even do this question? "
And Worst of all, others would already go "Oh! this question.. I know how to do~ "

There is not much time left for me to slack anymore..
But I find myself not knowing what to do anymore..
What am I suppose to do next?
How do I manage my time in order to complete my homework in a short period of time?
How do I manage my time to consult my teachers?
Will my teachers think I am stupid because others know this and I don't?
How am I going to be able to understand the chapters that I don't understand straight away?

The Mid-Year Examination is only 1 week to go.. And I am here struggling..

I am even thinking of quitting my tuition~
reasons being:
1) I really have to take a bus and travel all the way to another side.. Which takes half of my time up and I would have lesser time for revision.
2) I know myself, if I have tuitions in groups my concentration would not be there anymore and I would not understand much.. Yes I agree that having tuitions in group would get to know how to do questions and answer questions together with people from other schools.
3) The main point is, for me tuition is like a revision kind of thing and if I have so much homework from tuition.. It is equivalent to having homework as much as in school and I would start to get stressed up ..
4) My mother has already started to oppose me of going to tuition too, she said the timing are always either too late or too early and it is very tiring for me..

So what am I supposed to do? Should I quit?

I don't even feel like thinking about how my 16th birthday is going to be celebrated~ Just.. No strength to think..

Feel like having a long long long vacation.. Which will never happen until the O levels are over ..

21:39 pm( SG )
Sunday, 19th April 2009
Roxxi

Ps: Congrats to YI's Choir for getting Silver! For a new batch 1 year old choir to get silver it is really something! Good Job! Kudos!( learn from english situational writing one )

Avril Lavigne Concert Pictures Part 1

2008-09-08T13:14:00.010+08:00

disclaimers: All these pictures are taken by me, if you want any of the pictures please do ask me by tagging me or emailing me hengroxanne@hotmail.com
* Sorry that some pictures are very blur and unclear~ There were some obstructions and blockings and it made me kind of difficult to take the pictures

This the dance group, specially being chosen and had auditioned to participate in the event!( sorry for the blur pictures again )
This the band I was talking about, I don't hate them but I hope they could improve..
This is the background where a big black cloth covers the ACTUAL BAND
And when the cloth is being taken away, there it is! Avril Lavigne's Girlfriend's poster!
This was on the screen, it is blurry as it is moving( it is a video clip ) of Avril Lavigne's name but I didn't get the chance to take the full Avril name though~ SAD!
Dancers coming out for Girlfriend!( The first song )
And there she is!! * screams * haha~
More pictures of her performing Girlfriend

More Pictures..
She is this close to me( of cause closer as Camera can't be the same as Human Eye )* Physics *
More Pictures~~

Will be updating more pictures tomorrow On 9.09.2008! See ya!
08.09.2008
20.47 pm
Roxxi

Avril Lavigne Concert on 7th September 2008

2008-09-08T12:45:00.005+08:00

YEP~ I am back from updating my blog..
I went to Avril Lavigne's Concert Yesterday on 07/09/2008.
I've promised my God Mei, Ms. Valerie ^^ to update pictures of the concert since she didn't get the chance to go there.

Hmm..
The concert was really Great WHEN Avril Lavigne came out!
Let me tell you why?

1) The concert is only 1hour 30 mins BUT the first half an hour had been taken away by a band and a dance group

2) The dance was really awesome and it did hype us up~ and I don't mind having the band to come out and sing for a warm-up but.. they had too many songs already and it bored us

3) They didn't get the response that we wanted and the singer just scolded us "you suck".. This is really humiliating and whatsmore, To be a singer you have to stand all those criticizes and not scold the audience just because the audience didn't give you what you wanted.

4) Maybe because Avril Lavigne's a Professional and the band had overcome many many cases and straight away when they come out, Everybody became super high~ The band is super good and Avril Lavigne's Voice just simply ROCK!

5) There is actually also another reason~ we came to singapore indoor stadium to see Avril Lavigne and not to see some bands that take the time we wanted to spent with Avril Lavigne so of cause we will give you a negative side of us instead of a cheering side!

Well.. I hope that new band would really think over about it and maybe improve on the vocal part, If the singer mumbles when they sing or do not have enough strength to sing.. This is also one reason the crowd is not hype. AND the most UNFORGIVABLE part is NEVER SCOLD VULGARITIES OR IMPOLITE words at the AUDIENCES.

I really enjoyed the concert and yep I was not disappointed at all even though the starting part really got me kind of annoyed but I didn't complain and kept quiet and I am glad that Avril Lavigne DID the best damn tour ever which she had promised the audiences! * A round of Applause for that! *

I would give the concert 9/10
( If the starting was a blast then it would have been full marks already! )

Another thing I had always hated when I go to the indoor stadium is that when everyone wants to get home, there will difficulty because there would be SO many people squeezing for one bus and we would end up waiting and waiting for more bus and even when you want to call a taxi, the call would just jam up because there is simply too many people wanting to take a taxi home!

I will be uploading pictures in the next post!

There were also some miscommunications between me and my tuition teacher haha~
On Wednesday(03.09.2008) I thought I heard him saying that on Sunday(07.09.2008) we will be starting the tuition and No more Friday~
But then.. I woke up at 7.20am and took a bus at 7.50am went over and reached there at 9am~
BUT when I smsed him and asked him if there were tuition today.. He told me I mistaken him and sigh~ I have to go back home once again~~ SQUEEZING in the bus and MRT!
Made me wake up SO early but in the end~ Nothing happened!

8/09/2008
13.15 pm
Roxxi

NOT THE SAME

2008-07-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

I don't understand why does she have to compare me with the other relatives of mine !
SO what if I have a dream and the dream is not a dream that can be fulfilled easily !

THIS IS MY DREAM AND I WANT TO MAKE IT HAPPEN !
THIS IS WHAT I WANTED AND SO MUCH WANTED IT TO HAPPEN
I AM SPECIAL AND I DON'T WANT TO HAVE THE SAME LIFE LIKE ANY OF WHATEVER YOU SAY RELATIVES !
I AM ME AND IF THEY DON'T HAVE A CELEBRITY DREAM ~
WELL I HAVE!

I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU WANT BUT IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO HELP ME
I AM GOING TO HELP MYSELF!

SINCE NOBODY IS GOING TO HELP ME
I WILL FIND ONE FOR MY SELF
I WILL SAFE MONEY TO BUY EVERYTHING THAT I WANT MYSELF
I WILL PROVE TO YOU THAT I CAN FACE THE FUTURE
NO MATTER WHAT THINGS YOU GIVE TO ME I WILL FACE IT
WITHOUT FEAR !
AND I WILL NOT DROP A SINGLE TEAR AT ALL
FROM NOW ON I WILL NOT BE THE SAME LIKE THE ROXANNE HENG BEFORE
I WILL NOT WASTE ANY MORE TIME ON USELESS THINGS
IF YOU WON'T GIVE ME THE MONEY THEN FINE!
I SHALL EARN IT MYSELF !

YOU DON'T LET ME GO OUT!?
THEN FINE ! I SHALL GO OUT AS OFTEN AS POSSIBLE TO EARN AND FIND A JOB FOR MYSELF !
SINCE YOU SAID I AM NOT MATURED ENOUGH !
I SHALL PROVE TO YOU THAT I AM MATURED !
I WANT TO PROVE TO YOU THAT I AM INDEPENDENT AND I DON'T NEED YOUR HELP !
YOU GET IT!?
I DO NOT NEED YOUR HELP !
NONE OF YOUR HELP ARE NEEDED
I DON'T EVEN NEED LOVE FROM YOU OR FROM ANY ONE
NO ONE LOVES ME THAT'S FINE!
CAUSE THAT IS WHAT I AM!

11.40 PM
19.07.2008 ( saturday )

In soon ... less than 5 hours I will turn 15

2008-04-29T19:12:00.003+08:00

HAHA .. Can't believe it that awhile ago I was thinking on .. How long is my birthday going to come ..
And now it's only 1 day away from me ..
Actually to be saying the fact ..
I don't really anticipate for the birthday to come because I know that every year it would be the same .. Just .. Loneliness ..
I can't accept the fact that I cannot stand with the Loneliness ..
And what I'm most scared of is being LEFT OUT ..
I could take in almost everything .. But I cannot be a loner ..
I MUST have someone by my side ..
To Encourage Me ..
To Cheer Me Up ..
To Help Me ..
To Let Me Share All My Sorrows ..
This is the weak point that I hate ..
I've always tried to be independant .. But I Can't ..
All Thanks to my Horoscope HAHA!

hmm .. Although This article may seem to be that I am being emotional ..
But .. Still I want to list down all my wishes ! And I really HOPE THAT EACH AND EVERY SINGLE OF THEM COME TRUE ( HEHE .. I know I am alittle selfish wanting everything to be fulfilled! But I do know that not everything can happen at one go .. )

SO .. Here it is ..

1) Hopes everyone passes their Mid-Year Examination with flying colours ( INCLUDING MYSELF )
2) Get at least top 30 in level position.
4) Become a singer ( one day .. )
5) Gets a Big Big Mirror ( for practice use )
6) Gets a real piano
7) Microphone ( haha .. I know it seems silly but at least I could use it to build up my confidence )
8) Own laptop ( not really in need yet LOL )
9) Own Bicycle ( ever since my previous bicycle was SPOILT.. I cannot ride my bicycle to angywhere )
10) Photo Shop Programme ( So I can edit my own pictures )
11) Weighing scale ( To keep track of my weight hehe )
12) Own PSP
13) They Kiss Again( Full Version with english subs ), The prince turns into a frog( Full version with english subs ), Ying Ye 3 + 1( Full Version with english subs[ currently unable to find LOL ] ), hana Kimi( Full Version with english subs ), Er Nv Ah Chu( Full Version with english subs )....
14) Ying Ye 3 + 1 OST, Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni OST
15) Find my Mr.right
16) many many pens! ( always lost the pen ... )
17) Whole Family being healthy and can be together happily!
18) Increase in Monthly pocket money!

I can't think of anything more ..
but that's what i really wished for ..
These things are all .. veri expensive things haha ..
And I don't expect anyone to buy it .. It's just my wishful thinking hehe ..
These are going to be what I want to get .. Once I have enough money ^^

I'm Going to eat my Dinner hehe..
Ciaox
19.33 pm ( SG )
29th april 2008 ( I almost write it as 1993 ) LOL! The year that I am born ..

Performance .. PERFORMANCE !!

2008-04-03T20:51:00.003+08:00

Woah... Tomorrow's the performance already ..
OMG .. The attire is seriously .... so weird ..
SO LONG .. I can fall down if I don't pull my skirt up to walk ...
Sigh ! Not really worried with the lyrics ..
Just worried with the choir ..
Although I have to say everybody improved alot in the singing part ~!
But I hope tomorrow it will be EVEN LOUDER !
And PLEASE let me see .. all your ... SMILES !
Don't let me feel like I'm attending a funeral ..
If I am part of the performer and I said something like this ..
I think the audience will find it worst ..

Supposingly, Kat was going to come to my house straight after we end school ..
But because her mother disagreed with her .. so .. she can only come at 2 pm ..
But although we finish school at 10.15 am tomorrow ..
Both of us still have to stay back for awhile to have our chinese test ..
HAHA .. If not WE WILL BE ABLE TO LEAVE SCHOOL ASAP!

After giving Kat back her uniform + shoes ..
Went to the caltex and bought a drink ..
HAHA .. Don't worry .. it's not beer ..
Just thought about some memories back then ..
But it's over already haha ~
Life should be carried on ..
And not be looked back at !

Just want to say ..
Even if i look like I pretend to not know anything ..
Actually I know everything that is happening ..
So don't worry about hurting me ..
Just say .. I don't want to be somebody in between ..
It's best to let me know then wait and tell me later ..
But I don't blame you ..
Cause I know you will find it hard to tell me ..
But don't keep it anymore ..
I don't like to be the last person to know everything ..
I don't like to be neglected ..
Or being left out ..

Cause I felt neglected lately ..
All my friends have been not as close to me as .. before any more ..
Whatever it is ..
Just don't let me be the last one to know .

Ps : Hope everything will be successful tomorrow ^^!

Ciaox !
9.03 Pm ( SG )
3/04/2008

" Sway day " For me ..

2008-04-01T23:12:00.003+08:00

Haha.. Finally I'm back in school..
Still able to cope but totally and seriously don't understand what is going on..
Guess i have to catch up ALOT ..
Was wanting to update the blog yesterday.. Since it was the sway day yesterday and not today ..

Everything went very fine today ..
Nothing special did happen .. But 1 thing I know ..
While I was doing my Physics test today ..
I FELT like crying ..
Cause I simply didn't even go through/ revise that chapter ..
Sigh .. Felt a sense of ... Disappointment ..
I sure know what is the out come for the test ..
Which is Fail ..
But Don't forget .. Failure is the way to Success HAHA!

Anyway back to Yesterday's post LOL!
31.03.2008

Actually it is not really a sway day la ..
Somewhat going sway but then lucky again haha ..

The first thing is .. When I woke up in the morning then I realised that I have lost my Chairperson's Tagcard .. I was FRANTICALLY searching around the whole house like a mad person making all sorts of noise .. But STILL I COULDN'T FIND IT!

Then I have no choice but to go to school without the tag .. Cause I know I was going to be late .. Even though it is said to be a " Late day " On every odd week ..

I was so worried I told erman to help me go forward for anything if the DM called for chairperson .. Anyway I don't think so they would know about me returning back since I have been absent from school for 2 weeks already ..

But still when he called for the chairperson I still have to go .. I was like looking around at the other chairpersons and most of them wore the tag except some of us ..
Luckily the DM did not notice it .. If not I will be shouted at ..

And the MOST LUCKY THING was when we were having assembly in the hall ..
We have to check how many people are in the hall BUT again .. HE DID NOT NOTICE THAT I WASN'T WEARING THE TAG ..
So .. it's a ... happy go lucky thing ..

Then when I went home .. I started looking for my tag again my i couldn't find it no matter what I did ..
Then suddenly my dog bite something out .. HAHA .. I was like " Joe, can you please give it back to me? "
But she ran out of my room .. HAHA ..
I rushed out of the room and THANK GOD .. SHE IS MY SAVOUR!
I SAW THE TAG !! She was biting it and I quickly got hold of it before it gets broken LOL ..

Actually I can say this is not the 1st time she has helped me to find something already ..
There was once me and my sister wanted to play the playstation ..
So we went to search the whole house for the thing .. But it wasn't there ..
Haha .. then when Joe was walking past one area .. I turned to search that place ..
And found the playstation there haha .. She seems to be a talent in finding things that I've lost ..

The 2nd thing was .. During ENGLISH lesson .. We were supposed to be doing some debating composition .. And then the whole class were like moving around ignoring things .. haha ..
Yuting wanted to ask from Cao Ran for chewing gum and if Cao Ran were to throw Sokexey will be the one who will catch it ..
So I did a favor in helping Yuting to get it from Cao Ran AND WHO KNOWS WHAT THE HELL HAPPEN ON EARTH..

When I got back to my seat .. HAZIQ's CHEWING GUM WAS STUCK ON MY HAIR !
HAHA i don't know whether to be laughing or crying cause it is simply so funny BUT annoying at the same time ..

Si Ying and Wen Xin were like discussing whether we should cut the hair or take it out ..
HAHA they were even arguing with each other on whether should it be cut or not ..
I just said " Cut la " .. anyway cut also no difference one ..
Luckily .. there really isn't any difference haha .. if not I will kill one person ..
Anyway IF there were to be a composition on why should be ban chewing gum in school ..
I think I will know what is One of the reason already LOL!

Haha I actually forgot to watch my idol's drama on Sunday .. 30.03.2008 .. Every sunday 10 pm TTV .. 命中注定我愛你[ Fated to Love you ].. But the good news is .. Their rating has been increasing just like a thunderbolt ..

They were 2nd with the rating 2.56 when their 1st episode had air while 惡作劇2吻[ They Kiss Again ] got 1st with 2.77 ..

And then for the 2nd episode woth 3.81 and the highest 4.52 ..

Ever After Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa [ The prince turns into a frog ] ..
There hasn't been a rating like this high anymore ..
Now with their 3rd episode they are already with average 5.18 while their highest record was 6.77 ... Beating They Kiss Again by alot ..

Although I love both shows alot but I find Fated to Love You's Plot alot more refreshing and interesting ..

Here are the evidence of the ratings :

Ratings for the week of March 16, 2008( Average )

1. They Kiss Again/Er Juo Ju Er Wen 惡作劇2吻(中視) 2.77 [ Episode 14 ]
2. Fated to Love You/Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni 命中注定我愛你(台視)2.56 [ Episode 1 ]

Ratings for the week of March 23, 2008( Average )

1. Fated to Love You/Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni 命中注定我愛你(台視) 3.81[ Episode 15 ]
2. They Kiss Again/Er Juo Ju Er Wen 惡作劇2吻(中視) 2.53 [ Episode 2 ]

Idol Dramas Sunday March 30th 2008( Average )
1. Fated to Love You/Ming Zhong Zhu Ding Wo Ai Ni 命中注定我愛你(台視) 5.18 [ Episode 3 ]
2. They Kiss Again/Er Juo Ju Er Wen 惡作劇2吻(中視) 2.84 [ Episode 16 ]

link can be found :

http://asianfanatics.net/forum/Chinatimes-Showbiz-Viewers-Ratings-March-24th30th-talk522029.html

http://asianfanatics.net/forum/-talk481302.html

http://showbiz.chinatimes.com/Chinatimes/ExteriorContent/Showbiz/Showbiz-Page/0,4434,list+chartTv,00.html

Okay I have to go !
Time for some sleep ..
11.51 pm ( SG )
1.04.2008
OH AND HAPPY APRIL FOOL'S DAY !

失恋的感觉还真痛苦

2008-03-28T21:31:00.003+08:00

为什么每次都这样？
Why does it happen everytime?
为什么每次我喜欢的人都不喜欢我？
Why does the person I like always fall for someone else?
我的心感觉好痛。。好痛。。也好酸。。
My heart hurts .. it hurts just like it has broken into pieces .. I feel so sour inside ..
感觉。。快喘不过气来了。。
It gives me difficulty to even breathe properly ..
为什么我会那么轻易的爱上人。。
Why must I fall for someone so easily?
我有那么令人讨厌吗？
Am I that hateful in everyone's eyes?
为什么会没有人喜欢我？
Why isn't there anyone out there who like me ..?
我有什么东西缺少的吗？
what do I not have that .. other girls have?
是我太臭了吗？
Am I very ugly?

我恨我自己。。
I hate myself ..
不懂得靠自己生活。。
That I don't know how to rely on myself ..
需要陪伴。。
That I need a companion ..
会觉得很寂寞。。
That I will feel very lonely ..
觉得。。没有人爱。。
That I will feel that nobody loves me ..
没有人疼。。
Nobody dotes on me ..

才短短的两个礼拜。。
Just shortly 2 weeks ..
我不在学校。。就发生了。。
While I was having my chicken pox .. it has happened ..
还真的是伤心。。
It pains me when I think about it ..

该放弃的。。
Things that I should give up ..
还是得放弃。。
Should be given up ..
祝你们永远幸福吧。。
I wish that both of you will be happily together .. Forever .

28.03.2008
21.54 pm( SG )

Woah What should I do?

2008-03-13T22:54:00.003+08:00

... I have missed many many chances to become one star ..
And this time they have offered me another chance ..
Even though I know that the start is a tough road to go ..
And I won't get much scenes to do and even won't be on-screen ..
But I had hoped so much to be on TV and What's more now it's a movie NOT only A SHOW ..

There may seem to be only a tiny slight chance for someone to see me ..
But I hope I can use even with this tiny chance and get the attention of Them ..
BUT .. CHOICES HAVE CONSEQUENCES ..
And I have to sacrifice my Sunday's Piano Lesson And a School day ..
What am I supposed to do? the latest I can call is by 3pm tomorrow .

If I skipped school, what would I have to say?
If I skipped my piano lessons, It would be so embarrassing ..
Because I have been falling sick for like almost everytime ..

But If I went to school, I will regret for the rest of my life ..
I would have missed that tiny slight chance of going to fame ..

GO OR NOT ?... I don't know ...
There are so many people out there wanting this chance ..
And so many people trying to get this opportunity ..

Dear J Team Students,

You are cordially invited to participant in Director Jack Neo’s latest movie shoot this weekend.
He had planned a scene for all of you to get involved. If you are interested, you have to call ******** for ____ to register your name latest by this Friday 3pm.

Please note that you have to commit for 2 days shoot.

and these are the details that .... I can show ..
Date: 16 March & 17 March (2 days)

Reporting Time for both days: 8.30am (report to Esther / Weiwei)

Attire: Casual Wear (to bring 1 set of extra clothes)

Payment: $50 per day for each individual

Estimated Ending Time: 8.00pm

.... Thinking ... And can't call now because it's too late already.

Shall try to wake up as early as possible tomorrow ..
I hope there will still be a place for me ...
But I have little confidence in talking to strangers on the phone ..
What should I do?

SIGH ~!!

thursday
13th March 2008
11.08 pm ( SG )

Nobody understands it .. because it's too complicated

2008-02-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

Is there any song out there that is sad enough for me to cry my heart out ?
Seems like .. it is very dangerous to write feelings in here ..
Many people may end up knowing everything ..
it's a lucky thing that I don't really write what exactly happened ..

He doesn't know who I am talking about haha ~ How silly ..
I really really don't know what to write ..
And my mind is full of question marks ..
My home work is not done yet ..
Tomorrow's is my cousin's birthday ..
I'm so sick and tired of everything ..
I'm fed up with my family matters and I don't wish to care at all ..

She thought that I can handle everything ..
But I am starting to feel like I cannot breathe again ..
Why do people have feelings ?
Can we not have any feelings ?
So that we don't know what is the feeling of love ..
What is the feeling of happiness ..
What is the feeling of misery ..
What is the feeling of losing a loved one ..
Whatver feelings a human have ..

Suprisingly ... I've updated two entries in 1 day ..
HAHA .. .........

21.33 pm
01.02.2008
Friday

Even with the thinnest hope of ... forgetting you ..

2008-02-01T20:37:00.000+08:00

I find it really hard to let go of you ..
And I don't know what to do to forget about you .
The promise of giving you up .. has been made ..
But everytime I see you ..
I find it hard ... To give up ..

Even with the thinniest chance of you saying yes to me ..
Can make me happy .
But I guess i'm too naive ..
Nothing can happen between you and me ..

Even if we are so close to each other ..
You can't see me .
And I can't do anything to let you see me .

I even hoped that I won't get to see you the whole day of today ..
But I still saw you ..
Seeing you ... makes me feel hurt ..
Probably because of the promise I made ..

' Toi bo cuoc ' is the new word I've learned from my friend ..
Which is .. I give up ..
Yep .. I give up ..

20.44 pm
1.02.2008
Friday

I've lost .. someone that has only been living for a few weeks ..

2008-01-30T19:53:00.000+08:00

a few weeks .. ? what can be the only thing that can live for a few weeks ?
Just with a few weeks .. Our bond has became stronger ..
I've wished so much that you will come into this world .. And share the live on earth with us ..
I hope that in the next life you would be able to be my someone ..
R.I.P .

.. Why can't my sister understand ?
Why can't she grow faster ?
Why does she have to give me so much problems ?
( She ) was fine before my sister came back ..
But when she came back... She made ( her ) angry !
She is not supposed to agitate ( her ) ..
After an operation ....
Anybody would be weak ~
But why can't she simply understand and not disturb ( her ) ?
...

Tomorrow is FYC's birthday ..
Sigh .. I feel very sorry .. Because of all the things that happened lately ..
And can't buy any present ......
SORRY ..
Hope that tomorrow will the happiest day in your life ^^

.. have to go ..
Wednesday( 30.01.2008 )
20.32 pm

Busy~ Busy~ Busy ...

2008-01-29T22:30:00.000+08:00

Currently not in the mood to talk ...
Was wanting to update .. this blog ..
But I am really really very very busy with school and even outside school ..
From monday to friday I have tution from 3pm till 8pm sharp ..
And on sunday I have my piano lesson at 7.15 pm .
I am going to need some time to get used to the time although I am quite used to it now ..

we now have total of 38 students in our class.. 2 new students joined in and they are both from china.
A guy who is called Si yang and the girl is called Zhen Qun.
But the saddest thing in my life is ... One of our classmate had left us ...
Just today ..

Zanria~ I will miss you .. Hope that you will come online more often to chat with us.
Although we don't know each other well, but after a few weeks of getting along with each other ..
I know that you like to hit ms cally tan and you always like to say ' hello ' and I would say ' bye bye ' ..
And you would start hitting me ..
I hope that there will still be a chance where we all can meet ..
18 February is the final day that you will be in Singapore ..
I hope I have the chance to send you off ..
3e2 will miss you alot !

Tomorrow I'm accompanying my mom to the hospital ..
The reason is very Confidential .. But I hope ... nothing is going to happen to her ..
Please pray for me ... That she will be alright ..
I am very scared that something will happen ..
Afterall, she is my one and only mother I have ..
And the one and only mother that I loved most in my entire life ..
I hope I won't start crying when I see how tough she is suffering ...

Please .. God .. I hope that you will help my mother get through this thing ..

Tuesday
29th Jan 2008
22.41 pm

A new year to begin with ..

2008-01-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

1st thing 1st .. Happy New Year to Everyone ! ^^

Was quite lazy to update my blog since like don't know when .. But many things happened and I don't want to recall about it !
And SINCE today is the First day of 2008 ! Let's start with my New year resolution and hmm~ Maybe I could write for my early birthday wishlist hehe~

1 ) Use more time on studies then on Computer.
2 ) Quarrel less with family and keep quiet unless they said wrongly.
3 ) Keep Calm at all times.
4 ) Save at least $10 per month.
5 ) Buy new keyboard piano On my Own.
6 ) Record all the money i have spent in my Accountance book.
7 ) At least score Bs for all the subjects.
8 ) Handle things without having stress.
9 ) Smile at all times even if I am sad.

Hmm .. I think this is all I could think for now .
Let's talk about my birthday wish hehe ..

1 ) Keyboard piano which is hard enough to press just like the actual piano and has all the rhythms included.
2 ) Own Psp + games included
3 ) Nintendo Lite Ds Limited edition + games included
4 ) Own laptop ( best have own computer )
5 ) Own Bicycle ( have been wanting this for a very very long time .. Please fulfil this for me .. )

HAHA .. it seem to be alittle demanding eh? But I don't request too much .. sigh .. this are all the things that i always wanted but cannot get ..

I don't even want to bother about my parents RELATIONSHIP .. it just makes me get frustrated ! I can definately 100% confirm that my dad is having a mistress outside ..
And I definately hate it when he always pretends that nothing had happened and always spend money MORE on himself than US !
Forget it .. whatever I say in here can't be passed on to anywhere and .. I don't think anyone would EVEN BOTHER ABOUT WHAT I'M WRITING .

really pissed ... off ..

About Yesterday + Today..

2007-12-21T20:53:00.000+08:00

Alrighty .. Alrighty ..
I need some... eh.. Recaps from yesterday ..
eR .. what did I exactly do ?
OH yes .. I went to Vivo City to watch National Treasure .. With my Family ..

And before entering into the cinemas .. I SAW Zax Wang renfu( 5566 ) haha .. around 2-3 pm ..
The show starts at 4.15 pm
This isn't the 1st Time I saw him ..
But This Sure is MY first time getting So up-close to him without any barriers ?
Or Whatsoever ..
Anyway .. I'm wondering HOW can someone who's already a Father Be so handsome !?
He wore a cap , Sunglasses , and a stylish Clothing( especially the pants But is in Western Kind Of style ) .. Which I think it's very cool haha !
I was walking with my father around the Place ..
And We actually walk pass him At first..
Then I turned around at stared at him for a while
" why is there so many girls around that guy ? "
And AT FIRST I really thought he was a STATUE !
I'm serious !
He was folding his arms like stamford raffles and his face is like No expression !
And What's More he's leaning against a railing and standing up so straight forward Just as STIFF as a STATUE !
But then I thought again " Wait~ He looks familiar some how .. OMG ! WANG RENFU !? He's still in singapore? I thought they went back already? "
HAHA~ silly thought of mine ..
Sadly .. I was too stunned to take out my phone ..
And take pictures of him ..
HAHA really .. TOO STUNNED !
Basically you imagine an Idol standing just like One arm's length to you only !
You will totally be stunned automatically right ?
At least MOST PEOPLE DO !

Alright .. The following things .. Hmm .. I don't think is that interesting .. HAHA !
End Of Thursday.

HWAHH~~~~~
Okay I'm super tired TODAY !
Question : Why ?
Because .. I woke up at 5.45 am ? Just for some crazy ushering that I have to be in school BY 7.15 am ..
Because .. Today is the day where all the FUTURE Secondary 1s Come into THE new school ?
Seriously ..
NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT ..
WAHAHAHA !

* smacks myself *
" HELLO !? * Knock Knock * ANYBODY IN THIS STUPID BRAIN !? ADMITTING TO PEOPLE THAT YOU'RE GETTING FATTER ? ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU'RE A GIRL ? YOU'RE KIDDING ME ARE YOU ? "

But I sure do need some excersise ..
.. AND I CAN'T SEEM TO GROW TALLER !
Since .. SECONDARY 1 ?
WHAT THE HELL !
DO I need to take some kind of .. Medicine ?
HEHE ..
Nevermind .. I shall steal my mum's diet medicine haha ..
HAHA .. WHAAHHAHAHAHA ..

" YOU'RE GETTING CRAZY AGAIN, YOU'LL END UP GETTING DIARRHOEA .. AND YOU'LL BE ADMITTED INTO THE HOSPITAL ! YOU KNOW YOU HATE THE HOSPITAL !? "

Okay .. Seriously .. I Think I didn't eat my medicine today ..
OR either .. I didn't get enough sleep ..
I think I better go before I start typing Silly/Stupid/IDIOTIC/etc./etc./etc.( slaps hand ) things AGAIN !

BYE ~~~~~
22:21 PM ( Singapore Time )
FRIDAY

I'm Back! I'm back!

2007-12-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

Oh Yeah~ Finally finished those things that I've thought it's going to be very tough to get through!

I JUST CAME back From Pulau Ubin yesterday~
The whole trip was 5 days 4 nights..
AND Oh yeah~ I want to thank those who prayed for me the whole time when I was away.
Luckily this was not 5 whole days in Pulau Ubin.. If not I think we will even suffer more..
We stayed in Singapore's OBS which was at East Coast.. For 2 days before moving over to Pulau Ubin.

Can say this trip is really full of challenges.. which I have to overcome..
And I guess after this trip I'm much more braver.. much more confidence.. And Most of all..
I've overcome the fear that I always had which was heights.. Maybe not totally but at least some..
And not forgetting darkness.. ( even though it was not that scary because we could hear some sounds from the campsite in Pulau Ubin and that tells us that we are near the campsite and even though we were being split up with only 2 person per time to walk back by ourselves )

And .. not only walking back by ourselves but we went through a tunnel which was quite thrilling because it is full of darkness inside and only.. 5-6 person per group to enter the place.
I am so proud of myself for being very calm and not scream or cry inside that tunnel..
Because I know this won't help.. and even if we did scream or cry nobody will help us..
But we did it and we went out of the tunnel together!( applause )

And also.. This is my first time that we have to kayak around a small island smaller than pulau Ubin.. And it took us a few hours to get back to our destination! But Let's be proud of ourselves again because We are the first badge to be sent out to kayak around this small island in our age category!( applause again ) whahaha~ yep yep.. we are only around 13-14 years old and we were to kayak around a small island and we broke the record of returning back to the island before 4 pm.. which I forget what time did we exactly arrived back to our destination but it should be around 3.10pm! So let's give us another round of applause!( applause )

The food isn't that bad actually.. The first 2 days in Singapore we had Catering food and we were being split into 2 groups. 1 is called Bootes and 2nd is called Canis Major. And I'm in Canis Major.
Haha weird names we've got there..

Anyway.. Our when we were eating... my friend Kumar... okay.. his food has got... caterpillar in it~ CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT!?
it's singapore okay!? Not Pulau Ubin.. .. And it makes us all tasteless when we think of that..
Is like..

" Woot!? Singapore!? How can Singapore have something like that!? "

That's what everybody always say.. But who cares.. when someone's hungry we will forget eh..
Anyway we only had one day that we have to cook our own food..
Overall it was not really very tough la.. Compared to what I heard from my friends that...
They had very tough things haha..
But here's the end for what I want to say for my Camp.

Well.. another thing I want to say..
Sigh~ I won't be going for tomorrow's star awards..
So that's also another word for saying I can't see 5566, 183 club, Show Luo, and Other famous superstars that I Like alot...
Super Disappointed but what to do? I can't do anything ahh....
Don't feel like saying anything else already...
SPEECHLESS ..

Back from Star Awards

2007-12-10T00:04:00.001+08:00

Just came back from Star awards
It was kind of an experience to be at the theater for the first time..
Haha~ and it's totally different from what we always see on TV!
They are all so funny and stuff like that..
Don't even look like superstars.
And when it was advertisement time..
The person who is handling the behind the scenes will tell us how long more we will have..
Eg. 2 mins and 50s
and some people will go to the toilet and stuff like that..
And the stars will start chatting or should I say stand up and walk around
BUT of cause not so loudly!
Actually we weren't that upclose to the stars compared to last year..
Where all the stars walk on the red carpet and we get very close contacts with the stars.
But this time it was the most funniest event I've ever been..
The stars said things that aren't really supposed to be said and..
It was really funny haha~

Well I can't write too much..
OH and me and a friend took a QUICK picture with Kym ng...
And the effect we not clear but ... quite nice in a way..
I'm going for an OBS camp tomorrow so..
I can't write much.. maybe.. when I'm back I could write even more.
Hope everything will be fine when I'm there..
Not so tough things that I can't do..

PS: Hope Yi Po Ah ma has reached her destination. I will miss you alot Yi Po!

IMPORTANT ! ! : And PLEASE pray for me.. to be back alive in A PIECE..

have to go.. Tonight!
Ciaox!

I'm back from china 14days ago?

2007-12-04T17:35:00.000+08:00

Hmm wondering why I didn't update my blog after returning back from china...
WELL Here's the story!
When I come back from china.. well it's already midnight.. So i went to sleep..
And then the next morning haha~ I went to USE the computer..
While I was using~ IT SUDDENLY SHUT DOWN!
so I pressed the on button again and IT auto shut on me again !
SO I told my dad the computer's spoilt..
I kept trying then it just shut on me..
So we brought it to West Mall for Fixing..
But AFTER a week later..
The person said nothing's wrong with the CPU~
WTH~.. AFter only one week then say.. sigh..
Oh well~ count this as fate? hmm..

I went to buy my books yesterday.. 3rd Dec 2007.
Guess how much is the total cost? SG$236.85!
Expensive Right!? and it's darn heavy...
I almost... collapse haha( kidding )
I only.. walk awhile then leave the plastic bag on the floor..
Then carry it up again and... Walk..
Luckily.. my house is just nearby if not...
I think I will die..( touch wood )

Sigh...
I realise I have been sighing alot since just now...
Well.. I feel like after I came back I've given bad luck to the whole house like that..
My camera is spoilt during the China trip.. It fell off my pocket..
Which I don't know how it fell off..
And.. MY computer is spoilt( which it isn't at all )
And then MY WII is spoilt.. Basically everything I touch is spoilt...
And so... Today we went All the way to Ang Mo Kio to find someone who can fix the WII
But then that person said... It's too new.. and he cannot find the Modification for the WII..
So bad luck .. Cannot fix it..
Have to go all the way BACK to Home again..

Sigh...
My mum just called...
She told me... My Yi Po Ah ma... Just passed away..
I just realised.. Life is so precious..
Awhile ago.. You see the person standing there..
The next moment.. He/she will be gone..
Kind of felt a little sad.. But no choice..
I can't do anything..
Eh.. Can someone tell me how do I post pictures here?
ANYONE?
well ... end of... What I want to share.. Today.

Misunderstanding

2007-11-09T16:06:00.000+08:00

I just realised...
Life.. doesn't stop just because you are sad...
You are crying..
You just broke up with your boyfriend..
You just feel very stress..
....... Whatever it is.. it just doesn't stop...

Tomorrow I'm leaving Singapore...
Going on a school trip to China..
Just felt really unsafe...
Maybe this is the first time I'm flying to another country on my own..
without my family only with teachers and friends to be taken care of..( which i bet.. they can't even take care of themself )

Suddenly felt so stressed up.. for nothing..
A while ago.. I still felt alright..
and then suddenly all the stress comes up..
From don't know where..

luckily, one of my distant cousin...
told me.. that they didn't meant to pang seh me..
sigh~ so that's the.. reason I was so pissed off.. and of cause stress..
because I waited for them... for almost hours~~
Wahaha now.. i'm back to normal..
WE all got the wrong number..
NO WONDER cannot contact each other !!
WTH!!....

NOW.. the only problem is..
I CAN'T PUT ALL MY CLOTHES INTO MY LUGGUAGE!
TOO small.. sigh..
So troublesome to go overseas on my own~~
I hope I won't get into much trouble...
Have to go.. Ciaox.

It's been a long time since I came here again

2007-10-30T19:52:00.000+08:00

Everytime I come here..
I will have things to say..
Well, right..
I'm really stressed..
I don't know what reason I'm stressed for..
But I know I have a lot of things to complete..

I'm currently finding a song that has to be searched BY Today..
And.. Tomorrow we will have to use the song for dance steps..
I wonder how some people can handle stress so easily..
Because they think on the positive side to get things better?
I wish this whole week can quickly pass...
So that I can at least rest for next week...
Before changing my attitude before flying to China..
For my educational trip..

Sigh.. I wish tomorrow will be a successful day..
I'm so sure I am going to sleep early today..
Sleep early, wake up early, Go to school early..
Hope the day will end as soon as possible..

Still have to find 2 songs to sing when I reach to China..
Maybe in the holidays.. Choir practices will be added too..
I don't know.. Since next year it will be the cultural night..
But hell Who knows what has happened to the Cultural night..
Postponed? Might as well say that it is cancelled...
Most of us have put in the effort for it..
And now it's gone just like that..
I really hope the principal will really Only Postpone it..
And not.. cancel it..
I have always been anticipating for it and not only me..
But my friends too..

I suddenly feel so bad..
I feel that I didn't do my duty well as a sister..
Was it because I was rebellious..
That's why she follows me?
Or did she learn it from school?
I don't know...
She doesn't seem to understand what I say everytime I tell her..
It's not right to do this..
It's not right to do that..
But she doesn't listen to me...
She always talk back to me..
And I don't know what to do..
Am I supposed to know everything by the age of 14?
Why does my family expect so much things from me?
Maybe my sister is only 7 years old.. That's why she's so rebellious..
But I'm not that naughty at that age...
Why is she like that?
Was I that spoilt when I was her age?
I don't think so...
Then why is she so spoilt at this age......
I just wish I can leave this whole world..
Then I will have nothing to care about anymore..

Nothing..
I don't have to hear nasty things..
Don't have to be responsible..
Don't have to study..
Don't have to be angry at things that don't have to..
Don't have to be spending my time in school instead of home.. For holidays..
......
Don't have to do anything...

don't know what to do.......
I
HONESTLY..
DON'T
KNOW..
HOW TO BE A PERSON....
Can someone teach me how to?
SOmeone? Just someone?

Mp4 or Mp5?

2007-10-25T00:01:00.000+08:00

Heh~ Opps.. I overslept today.. so I didn't went to school~
Shhh~ Don't tell my teacher heheheh~
Anyway it's after exams already so still okay lah~

my mum woke up at around 5 pm plus( hehe she can sleep as late as.. it can be just like me )
and then while she was making up/ taking a bathe...
I surfed the net until about 6.30 pm +..
She said she wanted to accompany me to West Mall for my piano lessons..
And then we walked down together to the bus stop..
I saw 77 bus.. but when I chased for it..
It had left already..
So we had to wait for another one..
But unfortunately.. when the second bus came which is 106..
And like around 6pm it's pick-hours..
So the whole bus is like super-duper cramped and insufficient places for anyone else to board the bus anymore..
So had no choice but to wait again~
We were about to hail a taxi..
But before we did that the bus came and this time round it was emptier..
When we reached west mall it's about 7pm+ already..
So we rushed( walk faster ) and went to Pasta Mania for Dinner..
Had a really quick one.. I think I had finished it in... about 5 mins..
OF CAUSE~ I shared it with my mother if not I wouldn't have ate it that quick~( Unless it's cold enough heh.. )
Dashed off to the 5th floor for my piano lesson...
And then after 45 mins..
My teacher turned around and then saw a person standing at the window of the door..
she asked " your mother? "
I turned around and replied " Bwah~ scare me.. ya~ my mother. "
haha~ She said she was shocked until also..
Still quite new with the piano.. not very familiarised yet too~

Hmms I guess It's time I spend more time on the piano..

And quickly save money to buy a new piano set..

my current piano is too lousy for me to play better things..

And since my dad doesn't want to buy a new one for me~

I will have to buy it myself...

After paying for next month's piano lessons fee.. which costs $90
But adding the GST with $6.30..
It cost $96.30~~( Expensive )

Went to Yellow shop to buy a pair of slippers size 37( I think it's the cutting haha~ )
My leg is actually only.. around 35/36/37.. that's small eh? hehe
After buying the slippers went to Basement 1's Bengawansolo..
Had an avacado... haha long time didn't have it already..
satisfied now.

Went into Shop & Save..
Brought some crackers and tibits home for me and my sister..
Actually after that we were about to went home already..
But saw this shop that sells Mp3/Mp4/Mp5 haha..
Haven't heard of Mp5?
It contains... games/camera/camcorder( record shows/movies from television )/Audio..
yep did you hear wrongly? Games? haha nope..
I'm saying the truth.. Mp5 can play games.. and record shows from Televisions that we are watching like for example Channel U, Channel 5, Channel 8, MTV... whatever it is..
Just pluck in the plug and press record and it can be recorded..
Yep that easy..( but I haven't tried yet )
Saw one that is 572GB Mp5 costing.. $199 but gives off.. $20..
and sells at $170 but gives a 1GB memory card..
so it cost $199 again haha~
why discount is because it's the last one and on display..

The person can't find anymore game disc to give..
So have to return back tomorrow to get it from him..

Came back home in a taxi..
And then my mum checked the Mp5..
she said there's scratches..
SO tomorrow I'm going to bring the whole thing to ask them again~
sigh~..
She said she don't mind paying an extra $20..
For a 1GB MP5.. anyway doesn't cost much to her..
Haha..~ so.. here I go.. have to return tomorrow for another time~

Got to go.. now's already 12.22 am( Singapore time )which... is already morning hahah...
So the tomorrow is today~...
Have to sleep already.. I don't want to have another oversleeping~~
Ciaoxz !

Found a new interest

2007-10-23T23:54:00.001+08:00

Woah ! I have totally no regrets on taking up Scuba Diving! whahahah~
I knew it wouldn't be that cheap.. So worth it!
From what I heard from the Coach/Instructor he said if it was one lesson it will cost at least $440 for cheapest NOT most expensiver! but maybe there is some who are cheaper~
haha have added in and Ta-da~ Now I'm in love with scuba diving too!

Finally found out how to do my blog with the help from Izzie mummy and Felix~
Arigato !
OH!! Not forgetting my best friend Xinying ^^ haha( Ps: thought I forget you right? hehe NO la~~ )

Was very exhausted after the dive haha and then now my face had turn kind of.. sun burned color which I don't know how the hell I got it~ We didn't really stay under the sun for long..
We were all along swimming in the Pool~~ So... has it got to do with the Breathing in and out of too much Air Tank( that's what the Instructor says~ because Total Oxygen will kill us so it's Oxygen + Nitrogen = Air )* Some chemistry here? LOL *

Heard about some interesting facts about Diving.. want to know?
DO you know that sharks are scared of humans?
According to the instructor.. when the sharks see us( IN asian ) they will automatically swim away.
And the reason why sharks bite?
Based on normal human beings knowledge we all know that when shark smells blood they will eat you up right?
But the true reason for underwater is because...
The Ocean water is very blurry and unclear so.. Imagine..
If you are in a very dark place and you can't see anything of cause you start using your hands and nose to touch or smell right?
But the sharks don't have hands so they bite you.
Understand? LOL!( I feel like i'm a teacher Oh NO~~~ )

and what does Scuba stands for?
S - Self
C - Contained
U - Underwater
B - Breathing
A - Apparatus

HAha... OKay I have to admit I did search the internet because I only can remember Self Contained whahahaha~ opps.. Shhh~ If the coach see this I think they will heart broken..
How can a thing that is Taught awhile ago forgotten now~~

Oh one more thing~~ When a person gets deeper and deeper in the water and so there's pressure right? so on the surface the person looks like themself but when they go deeper and deeper they will look thinner and smaller why? because there is pressure compressing us~
Our forehead has air, Our cheeks has air, Our ear has air, Anyway it's the whole face.. So when we get down the whole face will look thinner( good for those who thinks that they are having baby fats! )
But when we come up we will get 2 times the size of our self.. Reason~ this.. I didn't ask hahaha~

Woah seems like I've really fallen in love with Scuba Diving~..
Wrote such alot of things about it~

After returning back to school we went back to our classes and got our report books + options for next year's subject... Woah.. here are the results~...

English Language - 66 [ B3 ]( Sigh~~ nvm~ ... one way to improve is? Read more books! )
Chinese - 67[ B3 ]( HUH~ now then notice even win over english language by 1 MARK )
Mathematics - 83 [ A1 ]( Phew~ Didn't expect to be that high actually.. cause I've leave quite a few questions blank for my End Of Year )
Science( combine Physics + Biology + Chemistry ) - 78 [ A1 ]( Not bad already... didn't expect my science to get that high marks at all.. )
Geography - 64[ B4 ]( Worst out of all the other subjects... Told you so already.. my geography will be lousiest -_- )
History - 70 [ A2 ]( Better than Geography... and even though didn't really study can get this high is hmmm~ not bad heh )
Literature - 74[ A2 ]( AIYA~~ One more marks only.. But also no use.. Next year don't have Literature ! )
Design & Technology - 75[ A1 ]( thought I would get B3 ... cause of one single late work which disappoints me alot.. )
Visual Arts - 77[ A1 ]( Heard that our class is the only class that the teacher gives so high marks to us.. * applauses for the batch who did Art in the 2nd Half of the year ^^ )
CME - A( Eh ~.. This I don't know get from where one.. Orh~~ I remember already.. the respect OR Responsibilty thing for browser one )
Music - A( If I don't get A for this I will be very sad.. Why? because Music is my life~...)
IT - A( Luckily I did some script writings/editing at the end of the clip because the clips that we film were lost and.. sigh.. I and Jiayun had to quickly use the remaining time to type out a script at the spot heh~ any.. thing that has an Open and a Close endings that is incomplete I can help you to complete it up = P )

Total - 739/1000
Percentage -73.9 %
Class Position - 10/38
Level Position - 37/116
Conduct - Excellent
Attendence - 172/176( Bwahahaha~ didn't thought that I would be absent for so many days.. )
Comments : Roxanne is very pleasant, mature and responsible. She has done well as a Student Leader and sets a good example for her classmates. She blances her CCA and her studies well and has delivered a set of good results. Well-Done, Roxanne!

Sob this time there is no more... Principal's " Good! Keep it up " anymore.. sigh~ Nevermind !
I will work harder next year and strive even harder!

That's all for what I want to share for today.

TOmorrow~

2007-10-22T23:58:00.000+08:00

Heh~ I almost forget... Tomorrow I going on an outing hehe~
it's so rare for our school to have an event like Scuba Diving~~
Cause it's really expensive if you really want to know~~

then on Wednesday or Thursday 12 of us are going for recording..
Weee~ I think i'm gonna love it.. and it will be such an experience for me!

OH and after school tomorrow I'm going to get my report book..
BWAHHH~ So scary.. I really scared I would get very lousy marks..
Top 5 is already no longer me~~
and I don't request much.. just work harder next year !

And then after getting report book Woah~ have to choose subjects already..
Kind of scary too !
After everything well~ Again there we go~ For a Meeting about Next year's Secondary 1 Orientation camp.. Hope we won't stay up till very late~~
* wishes.. wishes... wishes *

Ciaoxz~ Off to sleep~..
Time now : 12.02 am ^^
Bye~

Seems like days passes days very quickly

2007-10-22T21:32:00.000+08:00

WOah~ wanted to update 5 days ago~ and here I am... updating 5 DAYS LATER~
Bwahahahhahaha~( Okay.. I'm a little crazy.. )

SO let me take a recap back on .... Wednesday, 17th October 2007~~
* Images appear * ( LOL, L.A.M.E~~ )

First thing in the morning... The shocking news had.. ehh~ Struck on me BIG...
It's like one big stone has just been added after not long ago when my exams are over The Stone has been lifted~...
Pressure and Stress comes up again.. I've been selected to be in the Committee..
What do I mean by Committee? Well it's made up of Head prefect, Vice-head prefect and ... more.. Which I'm not very clear myself but there's only 5 of us.. \
2 from my class and 3 from other classes~2 from express class and 1 from Normal academic..
Names.. I think it's not yet time to announce yet~..

Well then after knowing that.. for those who have to perform for the Cultural Night have to proceed to the hall to know where we are supposed to be located for our trainings Like Singing and Dancing..
Just found out that he has a lot of admirers other than me.. HAHa silly of me.. How can it be possible for him to like me~~

HAHA~ okay end of Wednesday..

Thursday, 18th Oct 2007

Woah So unfair... It was supposed to be a holiday on this day for sec 1 ~ 3 or 4s... because it was the promotion day and all the teachers were having meeting( YEP serious meeting )and then all the Committee have to come back~ How unfair it is~ SIGH!!
well No choice.. Came to school for discussion about next year's Sec 1 Orientation Camp~
haha.. we joked around alot and laughed alot~~~ haha.. even though it was discussion we kept on changing the topic but back to the topic again..

Well.. Continue..

Friday, 19th Oct 2007

Sigh~ Came to school today and heard that all the Cultural Night trainings are canceled~because it's not going to be held in 11th Nov 2007 anymore and held next year in 2008.. It's quite sad afterall we've worked hard for it.. and then it came out like that... Our 3 teachers had a tiff with our school's principal but of cause who will win? Of cause the principal~ Well No Choice.. But ARGH~ Then what happens to the... flight to China hahah~ Now that we have postponed the Cultural Night to a Later date... The midnight for the China trip is such a waste haha~
Oh well, what's done is already done ... At least I still can accompany my family till night time 10pm and then there I will be leaving singapore for China...
I think I will miss my family alot.. afterall this time it's counted as a one person oversea trip... ( ALONE )..

Had a briefing about the China trip on what to bring and what not to bring and whatever it is.. it's making me excited gahh~~ I can't wait anymore.. about 18 more days~~

Sighs I still can't find a way to change my blogskin~ guess I'll have to ask an expert already...~~

I'm feeling very lousy now..

2007-10-09T17:58:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling very lousy..
Why?
Because I can't simply finish a simple score sheet..
I don't blame anyone..
I blame myself..
Why can't I just simply pay the score sheet easily~
Like how other piano learners can do it easily~
Why can't I?
Do I really have no talent in piano?
...
I don't know..
Maybe I'm putting too much pressure on myself..
I'm too serious because that's what I want to be when I grow older..
To be A Singer, A Songwriter, A music producer.. An Actress, A director..
That's what i aim for....
But I doubt can I really do it now..
This is only the starting and I can't control myself from breaking down already..
What am i gonna do?
If I just simply cry just because of one simple score sheet..
Then how am I going to overcome the future..
That's why I hate myself..
Why Can't I JUST SIMPLY CONTROL MYSELF FROM CRYING!?

I must be strong~
I can't cry~
If I cry I will lose!
Don't Cry~
You cannot cry because of such small little thing that cause you to cry!
Don't be emotional~
You can do it!
You can play the piano~

...
maybe that will be my motivation from now on...
after writing this..
I think i felt much better..
much.. more.. relax..
Must I thank my so called " diary blog? "
Will people think I'm crazy?

Ah~ Heck care!
Thanks " diary blog " for letting me have the chance to type all my feelings in here..
and let me pour all my... misery here.

haha.. come to think of it~
I'm rather silly..
I don't even know what i'm doing..

Well~ end of what i feel like sharing today..

Yay~~ Finally i can do my own bloggie!!

2007-09-20T16:28:00.000+08:00

Oh my.. Finally when I start creating a blog it is IN ENGLISH!
The last time I tried to create a blog in blogspot.... All the words came out in CHINESE..
And even though i understand chinese... I can't really read so well hehe~
Okay you can say i'm pretty lousy in reading chinese..

Exams are round the corner.. hmm~ in a weeks time only.. it's next week's friday english paper!
haha.. don't have to worry much about that though just have to go through all those letter writings and stuff like that..

Well wish me luck heheh~ i hope i will pass my exams with flying colours..

Hmm this maybe a little too short but i really have nothing in my mind to write about today..
SO~~ Ciaozxx!