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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Everytime I come here..
I will have things to say..
Well, right..
I'm really stressed..
I don't know what reason I'm stressed for..
But I know I have a lot of things to complete..

I'm currently finding a song that has to be searched BY Today..
And.. Tomorrow we will have to use the song for dance steps..
I wonder how some people can handle stress so easily..
Because they think on the positive side to get things better?
I wish this whole week can quickly pass...
So that I can at least rest for next week...
Before changing my attitude before flying to China..
For my educational trip..

Sigh.. I wish tomorrow will be a successful day..
I'm so sure I am going to sleep early today..
Sleep early, wake up early, Go to school early..
Hope the day will end as soon as possible..

Still have to find 2 songs to sing when I reach to China..
Maybe in the holidays.. Choir practices will be added too..
I don't know.. Since next year it will be the cultural night..
But hell Who knows what has happened to the Cultural night..
Postponed? Might as well say that it is cancelled...
Most of us have put in the effort for it..
And now it's gone just like that..
I really hope the principal will really Only Postpone it..
And not.. cancel it..
I have always been anticipating for it and not only me..
But my friends too..

I suddenly feel so bad..
I feel that I didn't do my duty well as a sister..
Was it because I was rebellious..
That's why she follows me?
Or did she learn it from school?
I don't know...
She doesn't seem to understand what I say everytime I tell her..
It's not right to do this..
It's not right to do that..
But she doesn't listen to me...
She always talk back to me..
And I don't know what to do..
Am I supposed to know everything by the age of 14?
Why does my family expect so much things from me?
Maybe my sister is only 7 years old.. That's why she's so rebellious..
But I'm not that naughty at that age...
Why is she like that?
Was I that spoilt when I was her age?
I don't think so...
Then why is she so spoilt at this age......
I just wish I can leave this whole world..
Then I will have nothing to care about anymore..

Nothing..
I don't have to hear nasty things..
Don't have to be responsible..
Don't have to study..
Don't have to be angry at things that don't have to..
Don't have to be spending my time in school instead of home.. For holidays..
......
Don't have to do anything...

don't know what to do.......
I
HONESTLY..
DON'T
KNOW..
HOW TO BE A PERSON....
Can someone teach me how to?
SOmeone? Just someone?

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Thursday, October 25, 2007

Heh~ Opps.. I overslept today.. so I didn't went to school~
Shhh~ Don't tell my teacher heheheh~
Anyway it's after exams already so still okay lah~

my mum woke up at around 5 pm plus( hehe she can sleep as late as.. it can be just like me )
and then while she was making up/ taking a bathe...
I surfed the net until about 6.30 pm +..
She said she wanted to accompany me to West Mall for my piano lessons..
And then we walked down together to the bus stop..
I saw 77 bus.. but when I chased for it..
It had left already..
So we had to wait for another one..
But unfortunately.. when the second bus came which is 106..
And like around 6pm it's pick-hours..
So the whole bus is like super-duper cramped and insufficient places for anyone else to board the bus anymore..
So had no choice but to wait again~
We were about to hail a taxi..
But before we did that the bus came and this time round it was emptier..
When we reached west mall it's about 7pm+ already..
So we rushed( walk faster ) and went to Pasta Mania for Dinner..
Had a really quick one.. I think I had finished it in... about 5 mins..
OF CAUSE~ I shared it with my mother if not I wouldn't have ate it that quick~( Unless it's cold enough heh.. )
Dashed off to the 5th floor for my piano lesson...
And then after 45 mins..
My teacher turned around and then saw a person standing at the window of the door..
she asked " your mother? "
I turned around and replied " Bwah~ scare me.. ya~ my mother. "
haha~ She said she was shocked until also..
Still quite new with the piano.. not very familiarised yet too~

Hmms I guess It's time I spend more time on the piano..

And quickly save money to buy a new piano set..

my current piano is too lousy for me to play better things..

And since my dad doesn't want to buy a new one for me~

I will have to buy it myself...

After paying for next month's piano lessons fee.. which costs $90
But adding the GST with $6.30..
It cost $96.30~~( Expensive )

Went to Yellow shop to buy a pair of slippers size 37( I think it's the cutting haha~ )
My leg is actually only.. around 35/36/37.. that's small eh? hehe
After buying the slippers went to Basement 1's Bengawansolo..
Had an avacado... haha long time didn't have it already..
satisfied now.

Went into Shop & Save..
Brought some crackers and tibits home for me and my sister..
Actually after that we were about to went home already..
But saw this shop that sells Mp3/Mp4/Mp5 haha..
Haven't heard of Mp5?
It contains... games/camera/camcorder( record shows/movies from television )/Audio..
yep did you hear wrongly? Games? haha nope..
I'm saying the truth.. Mp5 can play games.. and record shows from Televisions that we are watching like for example Channel U, Channel 5, Channel 8, MTV... whatever it is..
Just pluck in the plug and press record and it can be recorded..
Yep that easy..( but I haven't tried yet )
Saw one that is 572GB Mp5 costing.. $199 but gives off.. $20..
and sells at $170 but gives a 1GB memory card..
so it cost $199 again haha~
why discount is because it's the last one and on display..

The person can't find anymore game disc to give..
So have to return back tomorrow to get it from him..

Came back home in a taxi..
And then my mum checked the Mp5..
she said there's scratches..
SO tomorrow I'm going to bring the whole thing to ask them again~
sigh~..
She said she don't mind paying an extra $20..
For a 1GB MP5.. anyway doesn't cost much to her..
Haha..~ so.. here I go.. have to return tomorrow for another time~

Got to go.. now's already 12.22 am( Singapore time )which... is already morning hahah...
So the tomorrow is today~...
Have to sleep already.. I don't want to have another oversleeping~~
Ciaoxz !

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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Woah ! I have totally no regrets on taking up Scuba Diving! whahahah~
I knew it wouldn't be that cheap.. So worth it!
From what I heard from the Coach/Instructor he said if it was one lesson it will cost at least $440 for cheapest NOT most expensiver! but maybe there is some who are cheaper~
haha have added in and Ta-da~ Now I'm in love with scuba diving too!

Finally found out how to do my blog with the help from Izzie mummy and Felix~
Arigato !
OH!! Not forgetting my best friend Xinying ^^ haha( Ps: thought I forget you right? hehe NO la~~ )

Was very exhausted after the dive haha and then now my face had turn kind of.. sun burned color which I don't know how the hell I got it~ We didn't really stay under the sun for long..
We were all along swimming in the Pool~~ So... has it got to do with the Breathing in and out of too much Air Tank( that's what the Instructor says~ because Total Oxygen will kill us so it's Oxygen + Nitrogen = Air )* Some chemistry here? LOL *

Heard about some interesting facts about Diving.. want to know?
DO you know that sharks are scared of humans?
According to the instructor.. when the sharks see us( IN asian ) they will automatically swim away.
And the reason why sharks bite?
Based on normal human beings knowledge we all know that when shark smells blood they will eat you up right?
But the true reason for underwater is because...
The Ocean water is very blurry and unclear so.. Imagine..
If you are in a very dark place and you can't see anything of cause you start using your hands and nose to touch or smell right?
But the sharks don't have hands so they bite you.
Understand? LOL!( I feel like i'm a teacher Oh NO~~~ )

and what does Scuba stands for?
S - Self
C - Contained
U - Underwater
B - Breathing
A - Apparatus

HAha... OKay I have to admit I did search the internet because I only can remember Self Contained whahahaha~ opps.. Shhh~ If the coach see this I think they will heart broken..
How can a thing that is Taught awhile ago forgotten now~~

Oh one more thing~~ When a person gets deeper and deeper in the water and so there's pressure right? so on the surface the person looks like themself but when they go deeper and deeper they will look thinner and smaller why? because there is pressure compressing us~
Our forehead has air, Our cheeks has air, Our ear has air, Anyway it's the whole face.. So when we get down the whole face will look thinner( good for those who thinks that they are having baby fats! )
But when we come up we will get 2 times the size of our self.. Reason~ this.. I didn't ask hahaha~

Woah seems like I've really fallen in love with Scuba Diving~..
Wrote such alot of things about it~

After returning back to school we went back to our classes and got our report books + options for next year's subject... Woah.. here are the results~...

English Language - 66 [ B3 ]( Sigh~~ nvm~ ... one way to improve is? Read more books! )
Chinese - 67[ B3 ]( HUH~ now then notice even win over english language by 1 MARK )
Mathematics - 83 [ A1 ]( Phew~ Didn't expect to be that high actually.. cause I've leave quite a few questions blank for my End Of Year )
Science( combine Physics + Biology + Chemistry ) - 78 [ A1 ]( Not bad already... didn't expect my science to get that high marks at all.. )
Geography - 64[ B4 ]( Worst out of all the other subjects... Told you so already.. my geography will be lousiest -_- )
History - 70 [ A2 ]( Better than Geography... and even though didn't really study can get this high is hmmm~ not bad heh )
Literature - 74[ A2 ]( AIYA~~ One more marks only.. But also no use.. Next year don't have Literature ! )
Design & Technology - 75[ A1 ]( thought I would get B3 ... cause of one single late work which disappoints me alot.. )
Visual Arts - 77[ A1 ]( Heard that our class is the only class that the teacher gives so high marks to us.. * applauses for the batch who did Art in the 2nd Half of the year ^^ )
CME - A( Eh ~.. This I don't know get from where one.. Orh~~ I remember already.. the respect OR Responsibilty thing for browser one )
Music - A( If I don't get A for this I will be very sad.. Why? because Music is my life~...)
IT - A( Luckily I did some script writings/editing at the end of the clip because the clips that we film were lost and.. sigh.. I and Jiayun had to quickly use the remaining time to type out a script at the spot heh~ any.. thing that has an Open and a Close endings that is incomplete I can help you to complete it up = P )

Total - 739/1000
Percentage -73.9 %
Class Position - 10/38
Level Position - 37/116
Conduct - Excellent
Attendence - 172/176( Bwahahaha~ didn't thought that I would be absent for so many days.. )
Comments : Roxanne is very pleasant, mature and responsible. She has done well as a Student Leader and sets a good example for her classmates. She blances her CCA and her studies well and has delivered a set of good results. Well-Done, Roxanne!

Sob this time there is no more... Principal's " Good! Keep it up " anymore.. sigh~ Nevermind !
I will work harder next year and strive even harder!

That's all for what I want to share for today.

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Monday, October 22, 2007

Heh~ I almost forget... Tomorrow I going on an outing hehe~
it's so rare for our school to have an event like Scuba Diving~~
Cause it's really expensive if you really want to know~~

then on Wednesday or Thursday 12 of us are going for recording..
Weee~ I think i'm gonna love it.. and it will be such an experience for me!

OH and after school tomorrow I'm going to get my report book..
BWAHHH~ So scary.. I really scared I would get very lousy marks..
Top 5 is already no longer me~~
and I don't request much.. just work harder next year !

And then after getting report book Woah~ have to choose subjects already..
Kind of scary too !
After everything well~ Again there we go~ For a Meeting about Next year's Secondary 1 Orientation camp.. Hope we won't stay up till very late~~
* wishes.. wishes... wishes *

Ciaoxz~ Off to sleep~..
Time now : 12.02 am ^^
Bye~

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WOah~ wanted to update 5 days ago~ and here I am... updating 5 DAYS LATER~
Bwahahahhahaha~( Okay.. I'm a little crazy.. )

SO let me take a recap back on .... Wednesday, 17th October 2007~~
* Images appear * ( LOL, L.A.M.E~~ )

First thing in the morning... The shocking news had.. ehh~ Struck on me BIG...
It's like one big stone has just been added after not long ago when my exams are over The Stone has been lifted~...
Pressure and Stress comes up again.. I've been selected to be in the Committee..
What do I mean by Committee? Well it's made up of Head prefect, Vice-head prefect and ... more.. Which I'm not very clear myself but there's only 5 of us.. \
2 from my class and 3 from other classes~2 from express class and 1 from Normal academic..
Names.. I think it's not yet time to announce yet~..

Well then after knowing that.. for those who have to perform for the Cultural Night have to proceed to the hall to know where we are supposed to be located for our trainings Like Singing and Dancing..
Just found out that he has a lot of admirers other than me.. HAHa silly of me.. How can it be possible for him to like me~~

HAHA~ okay end of Wednesday..

Thursday, 18th Oct 2007

Woah So unfair... It was supposed to be a holiday on this day for sec 1 ~ 3 or 4s... because it was the promotion day and all the teachers were having meeting( YEP serious meeting )and then all the Committee have to come back~ How unfair it is~ SIGH!!
well No choice.. Came to school for discussion about next year's Sec 1 Orientation Camp~
haha.. we joked around alot and laughed alot~~~ haha.. even though it was discussion we kept on changing the topic but back to the topic again..

Well.. Continue..

Friday, 19th Oct 2007

Sigh~ Came to school today and heard that all the Cultural Night trainings are canceled~because it's not going to be held in 11th Nov 2007 anymore and held next year in 2008.. It's quite sad afterall we've worked hard for it.. and then it came out like that... Our 3 teachers had a tiff with our school's principal but of cause who will win? Of cause the principal~ Well No Choice.. But ARGH~ Then what happens to the... flight to China hahah~ Now that we have postponed the Cultural Night to a Later date... The midnight for the China trip is such a waste haha~
Oh well, what's done is already done ... At least I still can accompany my family till night time 10pm and then there I will be leaving singapore for China...
I think I will miss my family alot.. afterall this time it's counted as a one person oversea trip... ( ALONE )..

Had a briefing about the China trip on what to bring and what not to bring and whatever it is.. it's making me excited gahh~~ I can't wait anymore.. about 18 more days~~

Sighs I still can't find a way to change my blogskin~ guess I'll have to ask an expert already...~~

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Tuesday, October 9, 2007

I'm feeling very lousy..
Why?
Because I can't simply finish a simple score sheet..
I don't blame anyone..
I blame myself..
Why can't I just simply pay the score sheet easily~
Like how other piano learners can do it easily~
Why can't I?
Do I really have no talent in piano?
...
I don't know..
Maybe I'm putting too much pressure on myself..
I'm too serious because that's what I want to be when I grow older..
To be A Singer, A Songwriter, A music producer.. An Actress, A director..
That's what i aim for....
But I doubt can I really do it now..
This is only the starting and I can't control myself from breaking down already..
What am i gonna do?
If I just simply cry just because of one simple score sheet..
Then how am I going to overcome the future..
That's why I hate myself..
Why Can't I JUST SIMPLY CONTROL MYSELF FROM CRYING!?

I must be strong~
I can't cry~
If I cry I will lose!
Don't Cry~
You cannot cry because of such small little thing that cause you to cry!
Don't be emotional~
You can do it!
You can play the piano~

...
maybe that will be my motivation from now on...
after writing this..
I think i felt much better..
much.. more.. relax..
Must I thank my so called " diary blog? "
Will people think I'm crazy?

Ah~ Heck care!
Thanks " diary blog " for letting me have the chance to type all my feelings in here..
and let me pour all my... misery here.

haha.. come to think of it~
I'm rather silly..
I don't even know what i'm doing..

Well~ end of what i feel like sharing today..

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